Singin in d rain..
Still rubbing my eyes,started walking towards the
window,pulling the window panes open,stretched my hands towards the open
sky,trying to embrace the cool breeze,basking in the warmth of sunlight,that
immense pleasure,a smile on my lips,and wishing myself a good morning,indeed made the morning a
perfect one..
A new gal in the city,hmm,have been to other places too
or rather countries,but somehow coud’nt figure out why am i having this strange and weird excitement,a
spring in my step,a smile on my lips,something alike my childhood days right
from the moment I had stepped in this city!
Having taken the instructions from the caretaker about
the tea bag chai a day before,went into kitchen to make my cuppa chai,without
which however perfect a morning remains incomplete!Its a different story that
however perfect a story is it will have its flaws,in my case I dint have the
day’s newspaper to complete the picture perfect morning!pulled out a chair and
started walking towards the sitout to do chai ki luft uthaana!I better put few
words in praise of the view from my room,however,it was enough for me to get
lost!The amazing skyline featuring the elevation of a church,the partial view
of the tomb of a masjid, the clock tower fading away towards the oblivion with
a bhajan as the background score!Wish I had my transistor(yes!i still have
one!) to tune into!Nevertheless,steve jobs gave a substitute to this world!i
turned it on,and bang on,the morning coud’nt have got better with ‘the boss’! “naam
gum jaayega
Chehra yeh badal jaayega..!”
Was still trying to discern the strange emotions I was
going through.It was excitement all right but also had a mixture of that
strange underlying eerie feeling,for which I did not dare to find an answer.
So stood up and thought however average the view is from
my room,still there were birds in the sky,cool breeze to blow my hair back and
make way for that epic frame if I had to shoot this scene.In order to stop
pondering over the fact whether or not will I be witnessing this beautiful
sunrise ever again in this city.
It was funny the way I had decided to come to this
city,knowing very little of the fact about my stand on the job nor the
city!Every morning I used to wake up with a hope to run away from the known
streets and familiar faces for the fact
that they had become way too familiar which was too unusual for me!
Always had these words ringing in my head,no matter
where I went,what I did..
Gum hona chahti hu
Isi umeed se ki
Phir se khud ko dhoondh saku
Har ek chehre main us ajnabi ko talaashti hu
Yeh pata hote huye bhi..
Travelled to all those places unknown to me to be
existing in this city,woke up night after night,used to pick up my camera and
went clicking all those things which I never thought will be clicking,as a
matter of fact I shot humans,certainly had never thought will be doing like all
sane people do!while riding to all those unknown places,amidst the ear banging
noise,honking,people bragging about the quientessential metro characteristic traffic,skipping
the last 3 seconds of the signal,looking into their respective watches,yet so
oblivious of all these ramblings around me,being lost..
Like the centre metering(I know this is an epidemic with
me,though I aint this great steve mcurry I just cant see the world without
going behind the lens!) the scene I described looked all focused on me,blurring
the entire foreground,background,noises,lights,flashes..!The evening wind
blowing my hair,my shades protecting me from those flashy lights,and a
calm,lost expression behind them!
Still I love my bohemian self and this ounce of being
nomad that allows me to travel and travel for that is the only joy that is unparalleled!
Decided it was time to go about breaking those imaginary
shackles and run around wildly in the direction unknown to destiny!I ran I came
here to this city,though I would’nt say my dream city,but my dream city’s neighbor!Had
thought will be writing this piece of shit looking at the amazing skyline
against the backdrop of the vintage sunset amidst the shor in the city on the
shores!
To survive in this city had to go bout earning so had
thought of giving it a shot!hell yeah!broke all my previous records,dressed up
all formals,a decievingly honest look,a night before had prepared for a quirky
presentation of all the crap that I had acquired in these 5 years!It was time
that I started towards my destination,a cool 2.5 hrs ahead of the scheduled
meeting.With my visibly not so chaste Marathi,I did manage to reach the destination.All
I had in mind was to grab that job,not even expecting any magical lines such as
‘I’l make u an offer u cant refuse!’,no it would be suicidal to dream to that
extent.But since I am the protagonist of this saga,I was to be written a winner
all over.
Just managed to barely hide my excitement and stepped
out of the studio,called up people who would all be ears for what I say on the
other end.
It started raining,with not even a hint as to where I was
heading started walking,took a left straight down the road,as usual(this as
usual cause I write about a chaiwala I would have found effortlessly in all
those cities!) found a chaiwala,standing under the tarpaulin extension of the 3
sqm space ordered for a chai and in somewhile I started sipping the smoking hot
sugary chai,gazing at the street,people running helter skelter searching for
that chath,the chaiwala besides me squatting and just immersed enough in his
routine of pouring the milk from the container to the ‘gilas’ yet all ears to
the convo between the man in a watchmen uniform and a constable!still I could’nt
discern the fact that despite all these hussle around me I was being oblivious
to the surroundings,lost in my own weird world pondering over the fact that I had
a great chance to stay in this city,I had a great chance to escape familiarity!
Paid a shocking bill of rs.4 for the chai,pulled out my
headphones,and started walking under the large black umbrella,lost in iktara..
Reaching my room was a more tedious task than my folks
had thought of me reaching this city!as I said I am the protagonist,I ought be
the winner,found way oops ways,familiarized myself with few lines of Marathi,roamed
around the same square several times everytime thinking the city has too many
similar squares,acquainted myself with the petrol rates,local fm,the upcoming
civic elections,saw a huge bappa and also that dandekar was a Marathi name I guess
last name!
It was still sometime before the sun started
setting,knowing I dint have anything worthy to spend my time sitting in my
room,decided to take a stroll,another reason being that I had just realized that
I was more than hungry!as I said,protagonist,oh nothing but sheer luck,that my
room was situated in the central part of the city,or in my terms,cbd.on one
side was the shopaholic crowd,in the M.G.Road,wow every city in india no matter
how small or large it is,it will have one m.g.road!on the other hand or the
other corner started those innumerable unending Peths!by now even you should
have guessed it the protagonist is the quintessential crazy person!took the
route to peths,oh how many bazaars,if I were to loot this city,I would get all
the revenue fromhere(please writing such a line should’nt put me behind
bars!).i just felt that I had done time travel and was walking through the
streets of a different era!Or even better way of describing the streets I was
walking through,was like I had walked into the sets of peshwas,an old show that
I used watch as a kid!
All I could think of at that moment was my hands itching
to hold my camera,which like a wise soul had left in my room owing to the
fantastic weather!just to shoot this one street wanted to come to this city!a
foggy morning,sleeping city,endearing silence and framing that in a
monochrome!as I had mentioned earlier I have this epidemic to go behind my 3rd
eye!
Like any native ordered for a plate of pohe,jalebi and I
knw this ‘and’ will raise brows,knowing me,but had to savour a hot vada
pav!continued taking a stroll and cheking out the wooden columns all slowly discerning
to be part of the the city’s silhouette.Finally I came to an end,and had to
decide where to head next.took the nearest shortcut possible after a series of
enquiries(!!i would say a double exclamation!)
The heavens were mighty pleased after I did the honours
of having stepped into this city,it did shower again,oh it was way too perfect
for me to be walking on the median,in the rains under the umbrella,amidst the
night bling,flashes of the vehicles in the shoppers paradise where people
hardly bother to look around other than the wares!
The next morning standing in my room recallin all those
way too sane things I did from the moment I stepped into the city had me laugh
to hearts content!realised it was time for one more cuppa chai for I still had
4 and a half hours to reach the station to get back to familiarity before which
wanted to get lost as much as possible!
Finally it was time to bid a temporary(I still was and
am under the impression it was temporary!) adieu to this city that I fell in
love with,leaving the familiarity behind,far behind!
Ironically the song that my pod was playing was,quite pleasant
for the weather,my mood and the mad hustle of the station,meri duniya hai
tujhme kahin..!for the way I smiled people thought I was way more than crazy!
Somewhere amidst my journey towards this back to
familiarity mode standing near my bogey's door,music on,through those earphones,cool
breeze,an evening sky,wanted to leave my hands sailing free like those strands
of hair no matter how hard you try to keep them together tightly with a band,it
still blows free,kiss the beautiful evening sky,embrace the few remaining bits
of those things which are far from familiar..!
This city will
remain this forever,like me and this unknown familiarity!A walk in the rain
that was free from the sane thinking of running for a shelter,looking at your
watch,cursing for leaving the umbrella behind but the kind of full
blown downpour cats-and-dogs walking in the rain until you’re practically
dripping droplets from your hair with your clothes tight fit kind of walk in
the rain and smile at their dance?That was the best part about this unfamiliar city,for after sometime walking in those rains I just folded my jacket,tucked it into my bag,grabbed my hairband and tied my hair into a ponytail!
Clothes drenched. Hair dripping wet. Eyes are staring. But i kept walking. Not hurrying, but instead slowing down. I sneezed and shivered from the cold.
But in the end, all i could think of was..
Good I am still lost..